In the Beginning....

How does one begin to describe or narrate an experience that had no words, no sounds, no thoughts associated with it? An experience in which everything else falls into the background and nothing exists except the experience in the moment.
This is my challenge now.

I was not asleep--not yet fully anyway. Perhaps I was in that state just before sleep blankets the mind and body--but I was still aware of my surroundings and my thoughts at the time. I'd recently prayed--once again, urgently and for the hundredth time--for God to reveal His Truth to me….let me understand Him and what he desires for me.

Suddenly I found myself in the middle of a place outside time and space. (I cannot describe it otherwise.) In this place, I EXPERIENCED that there was a light.

This light was ALL THAT WAS and all that had ever been. There was nothing BUT this light and it was without shape or form or limit. Ceaseless. Changeless. Timeless. Undifferentiated.

It had been so beyond Infinity.

In what seemed like ages to me--had I been aware of time--but could only have lasted seconds or minutes at best--this ageless, formless light shifted ever so slightly. (How one can tell it "shifted" when there is nothing but that undifferentiated light, I can't explain, as I mentioned in the beginning.) Yet shift it did, and as it did, it became aware that It could not be aware of--could not know Itself --for It was so entirely unceasingly unchanging. Even so, It was becoming sentient in a much greater way than a human can ever be, yet similar as well. It's sentience--It's awareness--was EVERYWHERE.

After the fact--after the experience I had--I might have used the terms, "lonely," or "bored" to describe the shift or changeless change that I sensed was occurring in the Light. Of course, terms so small and human probably can never explain the "shifting" that was taking place, but as a human, I have only words to use to attempt to communicate what I experienced.

And then--another shift! A perceptible shift! The Something that was Everything (removed a part of Itself?) and that part became NOTHING. Light and Dark now existed in the same space, not separated, but within that ceaseless space the first Light had occupied originally.
Now the ceaseless Light and the portion of Darkness had something to compare It's-Selves to. Each portion was selfhood, yet differentiated.

Gaining momentum now, the Light again divided--some parts of the Lightness moving above and below, some parts of the darkness moving above and below as well. And now there were four aspects of Its Self for the Sentient Source to contemplate.

The rapidity of the new changes increased dramatically. Infinate divisions began to shatter pieces of the Light into Other-Yet-Self, even as the greatest portion of the Original Source remained untouched but aware. I experienced something like a great shower of fireworks--pieces of the One raining down and down. Each miniscule portion like a rain of shimmering glass, the One continued to shatter into All That Is.

From One comes Two.
From Light comes Dark.
From High comes Low.
From Bright comes Dark.
From Spirit comes Physical.
On and on this shattering went until everything that could possibly be created WAS created.

And although the Original, unchanged Source above all of It remained aware in It's original place, those uncountable numbers of individual parts fell ignorant of their Source even though they contained within them the hidden spark of the Original's awareness.

Universe. Galaxies. Stars, Solar Systems. Planets. Small, inert lives. Larger and more complicated lives….more intelligent lives and finally--sentient and self-aware lives. Each created from the Original Source.

And the further each was removed from the Source Of Them All, the less connection they were able to recall of their Beginnings in the All. For to experience fully, deeply and authentically everything that may be experienced, each portion of the All must forget that it is GOD.